dying

lack of writing spirit..

conversation of two man

i was a bit late that time..
due to some human error..

but i manage to make a progress..

i can speak..
i can talk..

i tell him about many things happen the past year
and also about my dreams for the next year

i think why a couldnt speak for the last two years was
i'm not adult yet
and now i'm emerge
as a new man
facing this world
i'm no longer a boy
i'm a man

thanks to you

3 years

been 3 years now eh?

huge happiness
huge sadness

big success
big failures

lots of families
lots of friends

many dreams
many goals

september 22nd
embrace yourself!
be strong!

no one can stop you..
except The God and yourself..

peter pan

now i know..
why peter pan and the lost boys..
never wants to turn adult..
its scary..

meet the arch enemy

i met my arch enemy the other day
should i call him that?
well.. he used to be my friend
notice the word "used to be"?
then why you ask?
he didnt acknowledge me as a friend..
not anymore..
or maybe..
he even didnt see me as human..
then why didnt i do the same?

you guys shouldnt take revenge too deep tough..
its never been sweet..
at all..
lets fill this world with peace..
its better!

but when you have lost your patience..
arch enemy it is..

coacroach dinner

there's a surprise in the dinner last night
a living kicking brownish bug on my diner
and i'm quite hungry that time
then BAM!
i toss the bug out of the plate
hope he washed his hands..
i put the plate down
and the bug still down there..
thinking "what a rude manner on top of the table!"
...
...
...
DIE!!!

i lost my appetite..
but i'm surprisingly hugry..
searching for eggs to make omelette
turn on the stove..
...
...
...
turn on the stove...
...
...
...
I'M RUNNING OUT OF GAS!!!

i tossed everything and went out to diner

after my mom comes back
she said "i turn off the gas for safety.."
SAY WHAT!?!?!

giant lizard

when i took a bath..
i found this giant lizard lying on the floor
HOLY ****!
what is this lizard doing here?
fatso doing most probably

then the lizard moved
HOLY ****!
then i look it again
(because of course i didnt wear my glasses that time..)
and found out that he's on the verge of dying..
fatso..
he likes to play with food.. i mean animals..

kids..
dont try this at home..

then after
when my mom take a bath..
she suddenly screamed
i instantly asked
"what happened?"
then she replied
"what is this lizard doing here?!?!"
like mother like son.. eh? wasnt it like father like son?
and i'm rolling on the floor..
laughing..

you need diet

in the window of our house
there are metal bars which keep the bad guys out
we never think about it until the cats came in
they think of it like trap doors
but it didnt apply like that for fatso

its been a while since he use the window again
cause he usually take a detour from the second floor at the back of our house
but that day he used the window again
...
...
...
and he didnt fit..
he struggles and kicking with all his might..
and after about 10 seconds he made it out safe
while i'm rolling on the floor..
laughing..
and i said
"you need a diet, fatso.."

another shave cuts

i was thinking to shave the other day..

then started to pose in front of the mirror with a wide book

whats the book for?

for the hair when they fell off

my mom used to surprised when she found "unidentified black hairy objects lying on the floor"

and because i didnt want to take the mirror in and out..

lets bring the shave at the mirror..

rather than bring the mirror outside i mean..



so i shave with my brand new shaver

now i know why they used foams

my chin feel irritating after the shave without foams

i'll buy it.. someday..



but yesterday irritaion wasnt the only thing i got

i even got cuts

and its bleeding..

i think i'll buy the foam between these few days..



remind me of my old days..

i shave my acne..

didnt notice it until there's a big red spot above my lips

then i realized, where the heck is my acne?

the bleeding didnt stop for an hour

i think i almost die from blood loss..

bomber - in memoriam - 070907

the day before

he was coming

and as usual

he scream out loud

to show that he's the boss



then the next day

my mom went out to buy something

and found him

lying dead by the road

hit and run



its feel like just yesterday

that he's still just as big as my palm

he was born at january 29, 2006

so he was almost 2 years old

and he was already at his maturity

and becoming a father

with a lovely wife



he was a good boy

a bit naughty

but overall

he shows that he's truly the man we all need

a bit stupid

but a real survivor

in the real world

a very strong companion

yet tamed



may you find peace

and no longer have to bear the pain

of living in the harsh world

you will always in my memory



bomber

in loving memory

070907

cats hobby

bomber's hobby..
broomed
whats that?
see that..
when my mom (or everyone else) sweeping the floor
he would came closer to the broom
scratching himself
when you try to push him with the broom
he'll just enjoy it more..
is this genetical?

fatso's hobby..
sleeping on top of the tv
say what?
maybe because its warm
so whenever he want it (more like third quarter of his day)
he would jump up the tv
lay down.. and sleep..
same question
is this genetical?

blog links

thank you for the blog link!
inda

hilarious..

veggy cat

when i was working with my computer the other day
my sister came in
she carried fatso with her
along with a grass she picked up from our yard

she sat down and said
"wanna see a vegetarian cat?"
i dont give her much respond for her question
but then she point the grass roots the fatso
which unexpectedly starting to lick it

is this a miracle or a curse?
or just that fatso was a dumb cat?
i'm speechless..

total eclipse

august 28, 2007
total moon eclipse
at 18.30 PM
quite visible from where i'm standing
to the side of east
and its big!

supposedly at full moon
cause you wont be able to see eclipse besides full moon
it takes around 2 hours
which i dont waited that long to watch it

a friend of mine had a camera
and we tried to take a picture of it
but it seems that a normal digital camera wont do much for the eclipse
the picture was shaking
way.. to far..
the blitz wont reach that
and the camera didnt have night lamp
was it supposed to make a change?
and the video only shows a white dot in the night sky

either way
its a cool eclipse
hope someone on the net had the video of it
the previous eclipse i watched only last few minutes
cause after that the moon was blocked by buildings
and the horizon after that, i guess..

cant wait for another eclipse!

i'm a bad person - 240807 - 11pm east

i'm soooooooo sorry......
i'm having an unimportant useless errand
and unable to reply the call
just when it needed most

i'm feeling soooooo bad...
i think i wont be forgiven
i think i wont be able to sleep
i think i havent took a bath this afternoon

i'm ashamed of my self
i'm useless
i'm careless
i'm not a man

i'm sorry
i'm sooooo sorry...
i'm very very sorry..

the promise
i broke it
i dont think i can make up for that

three calls
and i'm not there

i'm sorry
i'm sooooo sorry...
i'm very very sorry..

one little happy cat family

today was a special day
when i return home
i saw a surprising view
unbelievable, if i could say

in front of our house
(its not exactly front, a little bit to the right)
thats where our old teras were
cause we had our guest room moved
the teras was not quite used anymore

there was two chair
its pretty old
and sitting on that chair was..
bomber, with his wife
milking her two kittens
(seems like she lost the number three)

according to my research
the father of a cat not usually get along with the mother
more less their kittens
so seeing this view break all my theory

i came near trying to touch them
but bomber started to scream (he always does that..)
and his wife (should we use this term?) going all out yelling "get away, or i'll let my husband bite you!"
boy, they're furious..
another regret was i didnt got the chance to take their picture

prince and cinderella

cinderella was a poor girl --> i'll exclude this
being treated bad by her step mother and sisters --> i'll exclude this as well
working in her own house --> thats a fact..
then a fairy comes and relief her from all that --> there's no such thing as fairy.. why did came up to this anyway?
the fairy gives cinderella a pair of glass shoes
and she goes to the party where the prince is
the fairy said that cinderella only got time till midnight

then cinderella went to dance with the prince
having a good chat
and decided that the prince was a good looking man.. --> no comment
and of course cinderella was unbelievebly beautiful.. --> thats a fact..

the big clock rings
its already midnight
cinderella cried out "oh, no.." --> this is a bit much..
remembering what the fairy said, cinderella run away from the party
in a rush, leaving one of her glass shoes at the stairs
the prince desperately trying to chase her
and found only one of her glass shoes --> now we agree that this part was a bit too exaggerated..

2 years after, the prince came looking for cinderella, found her
and marry her..
and they live happily ever after

furem notes

just two thing i wanna note

furim
play with fire, you'll burn
play with water, you'll wet

furer
love will find you if you try

dream of..

i get up in a space
wondering why i can get there
it was all dark
then suddenly a light came up from behind
small
but slowly getting bigger
and brighter

the light turn out to be a giant train
make a stop right in front of me
the door opens
monsters came out
one.. two.. three..
and more coming out
with huge claws and jaws
swinging their enormous swords, shields, and clubs

i tried to reach my cell phone
dial 911
but no signal out here
where is this place?

i think back of all this
what the heck did this ogres doing in here?
but one thing is certain
if you can see monsters
you can have your own weapons
then a sword and shield pop up out of nowhere
i grab it
and jumped right in their face

at least that is what i would dream of my self..
odd eh?
but what if you're being dreamt..

sign from God

i kinda "ask to God" before the leaving..
the answer..
oddly came when i didnt suspect it at all..
God ways..
only God knows

the good thing is..
the answer is yes..

i'd better re-check..
just to strengthen my foot hold