i'm a bad person - 240807 - 11pm east

i'm soooooooo sorry......
i'm having an unimportant useless errand
and unable to reply the call
just when it needed most

i'm feeling soooooo bad...
i think i wont be forgiven
i think i wont be able to sleep
i think i havent took a bath this afternoon

i'm ashamed of my self
i'm useless
i'm careless
i'm not a man

i'm sorry
i'm sooooo sorry...
i'm very very sorry..

the promise
i broke it
i dont think i can make up for that

three calls
and i'm not there

i'm sorry
i'm sooooo sorry...
i'm very very sorry..

one little happy cat family

today was a special day
when i return home
i saw a surprising view
unbelievable, if i could say

in front of our house
(its not exactly front, a little bit to the right)
thats where our old teras were
cause we had our guest room moved
the teras was not quite used anymore

there was two chair
its pretty old
and sitting on that chair was..
bomber, with his wife
milking her two kittens
(seems like she lost the number three)

according to my research
the father of a cat not usually get along with the mother
more less their kittens
so seeing this view break all my theory

i came near trying to touch them
but bomber started to scream (he always does that..)
and his wife (should we use this term?) going all out yelling "get away, or i'll let my husband bite you!"
boy, they're furious..
another regret was i didnt got the chance to take their picture

prince and cinderella

cinderella was a poor girl --> i'll exclude this
being treated bad by her step mother and sisters --> i'll exclude this as well
working in her own house --> thats a fact..
then a fairy comes and relief her from all that --> there's no such thing as fairy.. why did came up to this anyway?
the fairy gives cinderella a pair of glass shoes
and she goes to the party where the prince is
the fairy said that cinderella only got time till midnight

then cinderella went to dance with the prince
having a good chat
and decided that the prince was a good looking man.. --> no comment
and of course cinderella was unbelievebly beautiful.. --> thats a fact..

the big clock rings
its already midnight
cinderella cried out "oh, no.." --> this is a bit much..
remembering what the fairy said, cinderella run away from the party
in a rush, leaving one of her glass shoes at the stairs
the prince desperately trying to chase her
and found only one of her glass shoes --> now we agree that this part was a bit too exaggerated..

2 years after, the prince came looking for cinderella, found her
and marry her..
and they live happily ever after

furem notes

just two thing i wanna note

furim
play with fire, you'll burn
play with water, you'll wet

furer
love will find you if you try

dream of..

i get up in a space
wondering why i can get there
it was all dark
then suddenly a light came up from behind
small
but slowly getting bigger
and brighter

the light turn out to be a giant train
make a stop right in front of me
the door opens
monsters came out
one.. two.. three..
and more coming out
with huge claws and jaws
swinging their enormous swords, shields, and clubs

i tried to reach my cell phone
dial 911
but no signal out here
where is this place?

i think back of all this
what the heck did this ogres doing in here?
but one thing is certain
if you can see monsters
you can have your own weapons
then a sword and shield pop up out of nowhere
i grab it
and jumped right in their face

at least that is what i would dream of my self..
odd eh?
but what if you're being dreamt..

sign from God

i kinda "ask to God" before the leaving..
the answer..
oddly came when i didnt suspect it at all..
God ways..
only God knows

the good thing is..
the answer is yes..

i'd better re-check..
just to strengthen my foot hold

leaving on a jet plane - 190807

"Leaving On The Jet Plane"

aaaaaa....
aaaaaa....

All my bags are pack i'm ready to go
i'm standing here outside your door
i hate to wake you up to say good bye
but the down is breaking it's early morning
the taxi's waiting is blowing it's horn
i'm ready i'm so lone some i could die

so kiss me and smile for me
tell me that you'll wait for me
hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause i'm leaving on the jet plane
don't know when i'll be back again
oh babe i hate to go

aaaaaa...

there's so many times i let you down
so many times i played around
but tell you now they don't mean a thing
every place i go i think of you
every song i sing i sing for you
when i'll come back i'll bring you wedding ring

so kiss me and smile for me
tell me that you'll wait for me
hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause i'm leaving on the jet plane
don't know when i'll be back again
oh babe i hate to go

now the times has come to leave you
one more time i let me kiss you
and close your eyes and ********* on my way
dream about the days to come when
i want have to leave alone
but the times that i want have to say...

so kiss me and smile for me
tell me that you'll wait for me
hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause i'm leaving on the jet plane
don't know when i'll be back again
oh babe i hate to go

Cause i'm leaving on the jet plane
i'm leaving on the jet plane
i'm leaving on the jet plane
i'm leaving on the jet plane
i'm leaving on the jet plane
i'm leaving on the jet plane
i'm leaving on the jet plane

sore feet

grand canyon..
why would i think about it?

well it happens that my feet has that image..
my sister said that i should wear sandals every where i go.. (including indoor..)
cause thats what makes my feet to dry and cracking..
was cracking the right word?
my mom said i should drink more water and vitamin c..
but i end up filling my tank and go to pee more..

its not that my feet was really cracking..
cause its not that it hurt so much..
and not that my feet has become bullet-proof with that..

and the story goes..
the point is, my sister gave me a pedicure set
WHAT?
is she drunk?
well, not that much.. (kidding..)
it was a set of different type of brush
designed to make your feet more smooth and shine (O_o shine? O_o)

believe it or not it works..
tough i still need more time scrubbing my feet to make it shining..
interested?
you can buy it anywhere around your local store..
battery not included

siblings quarrel

i never tought that siblings could do that
in my family..
quarrels only last three days top
for this one..
i dont know

the story came when a friend of mine has his little brother came in the city
the little brother was a quiet one
while his older brother was quite a rock star
the little brother was going into the college
and decided to stay at the same house
and the fight begins..
the older ones think that the little never learn much of his stay in the city
he cast out the little
its his house anyway..

im thinking..
what would happen if it was me..

i dont think its over now..
cause even tough the older already got advice not to treat his brother that way..
and of course they came back at the same dorm
they still not came back like they used to be
just like what he used to tell me

i..
i dont know what to do..

kitten birth

remember bomber?
like i said he become the boss around our neighbourhood..
and also getting a girlfriend..
catfriend i guess..
and like its been guided, she gave birth in our house..
my bed exactly..
i wasnt around that time
so i wasnt able to stop my mom who went beserk..
"that cat should stay outside!"

one thing that i noticed..
there were 3 kittens
(havent got the chance to check their sex..)
1 yellow stripes
and 2 triple color.. (gotta be female..)
she's got quite nerve to cheat on my cat..

collateral burden

3 years ago..
ive made a promise
that i will turn 180 degrees
tried everything i know (still more to try)
made a bit..
but i earn something anyway..

before that
i always think that everything was a burden to my shoulder
and added that to my fathers death
the burden becomes even larger
the other families were also wanted me to change
i almost give up..

now
its no longer a burden
its a motivation
rather than something to push me down
i believe they're trying to pull me up
and push me from behind as well

and this "another goal"
is surprisingly feels very good
giving me a new color in my life
and now..
LETS START THE DAY WITH SMILE!

broken glasses

i broke my glasses again..
its my number..
i loose track..

it was already night time..
i put my glasses under my bed..
turn off the light..
ready to jump on my bed..
when a suddenly heard a cracking noise..
turn on the light again..
and found my glasses smashed under my feet..

i guess its because i didnt wear my glasses that i cant see my glasses under my bed..
and it was dark also..
kabish?

the point is..
always put on your glasses before you step on your glasses do you can see it so you wont step on it..
kabish?

it reminds me of and old movie..
there was a black skinned cop who wear glasses..
before he arrest bad guys
he always politely ask them not to fight him..
why?
cause that would break his glasses..
and he hate it when someone break his glasses..
and would turn him to wreck havoc..
wow! i said..
after all the chaos and all the bad guys enter the cell..
he would return to his cabinet..
which is full of glasses..
another one i guess..
cool eh?

bachelor party

me and my friends are having a bachelor party..
its not like one of us is married.. (not yet..)
its just a party in house..
with some food and drinks..
with video games and computers..
and maybe some comic books..

we had so much fun..
that we didnt realize its been so long..
it happens that it wasnt "another" bachelor party..
at least until we get another party..
one of us is leaving abroad (its not that far actually..)
he's ready to overcome the hard life..
to get some job..

i believe that we would never forget who we are..
just a bunch of kids who want to have some fun..
and its suddenly the time for the real world comes..

its been so much fun..
and we'll always be there when you need us..

lots to say

just wanna say..

i'm currently the happiest man alive on earth
(along with other happy man)