collateral burden

3 years ago..
ive made a promise
that i will turn 180 degrees
tried everything i know (still more to try)
made a bit..
but i earn something anyway..

before that
i always think that everything was a burden to my shoulder
and added that to my fathers death
the burden becomes even larger
the other families were also wanted me to change
i almost give up..

now
its no longer a burden
its a motivation
rather than something to push me down
i believe they're trying to pull me up
and push me from behind as well

and this "another goal"
is surprisingly feels very good
giving me a new color in my life
and now..
LETS START THE DAY WITH SMILE!