dying

lack of writing spirit..

conversation of two man

i was a bit late that time..
due to some human error..

but i manage to make a progress..

i can speak..
i can talk..

i tell him about many things happen the past year
and also about my dreams for the next year

i think why a couldnt speak for the last two years was
i'm not adult yet
and now i'm emerge
as a new man
facing this world
i'm no longer a boy
i'm a man

thanks to you

3 years

been 3 years now eh?

huge happiness
huge sadness

big success
big failures

lots of families
lots of friends

many dreams
many goals

september 22nd
embrace yourself!
be strong!

no one can stop you..
except The God and yourself..

peter pan

now i know..
why peter pan and the lost boys..
never wants to turn adult..
its scary..

meet the arch enemy

i met my arch enemy the other day
should i call him that?
well.. he used to be my friend
notice the word "used to be"?
then why you ask?
he didnt acknowledge me as a friend..
not anymore..
or maybe..
he even didnt see me as human..
then why didnt i do the same?

you guys shouldnt take revenge too deep tough..
its never been sweet..
at all..
lets fill this world with peace..
its better!

but when you have lost your patience..
arch enemy it is..

coacroach dinner

there's a surprise in the dinner last night
a living kicking brownish bug on my diner
and i'm quite hungry that time
then BAM!
i toss the bug out of the plate
hope he washed his hands..
i put the plate down
and the bug still down there..
thinking "what a rude manner on top of the table!"
...
...
...
DIE!!!

i lost my appetite..
but i'm surprisingly hugry..
searching for eggs to make omelette
turn on the stove..
...
...
...
turn on the stove...
...
...
...
I'M RUNNING OUT OF GAS!!!

i tossed everything and went out to diner

after my mom comes back
she said "i turn off the gas for safety.."
SAY WHAT!?!?!

giant lizard

when i took a bath..
i found this giant lizard lying on the floor
HOLY ****!
what is this lizard doing here?
fatso doing most probably

then the lizard moved
HOLY ****!
then i look it again
(because of course i didnt wear my glasses that time..)
and found out that he's on the verge of dying..
fatso..
he likes to play with food.. i mean animals..

kids..
dont try this at home..

then after
when my mom take a bath..
she suddenly screamed
i instantly asked
"what happened?"
then she replied
"what is this lizard doing here?!?!"
like mother like son.. eh? wasnt it like father like son?
and i'm rolling on the floor..
laughing..

you need diet

in the window of our house
there are metal bars which keep the bad guys out
we never think about it until the cats came in
they think of it like trap doors
but it didnt apply like that for fatso

its been a while since he use the window again
cause he usually take a detour from the second floor at the back of our house
but that day he used the window again
...
...
...
and he didnt fit..
he struggles and kicking with all his might..
and after about 10 seconds he made it out safe
while i'm rolling on the floor..
laughing..
and i said
"you need a diet, fatso.."

another shave cuts

i was thinking to shave the other day..

then started to pose in front of the mirror with a wide book

whats the book for?

for the hair when they fell off

my mom used to surprised when she found "unidentified black hairy objects lying on the floor"

and because i didnt want to take the mirror in and out..

lets bring the shave at the mirror..

rather than bring the mirror outside i mean..



so i shave with my brand new shaver

now i know why they used foams

my chin feel irritating after the shave without foams

i'll buy it.. someday..



but yesterday irritaion wasnt the only thing i got

i even got cuts

and its bleeding..

i think i'll buy the foam between these few days..



remind me of my old days..

i shave my acne..

didnt notice it until there's a big red spot above my lips

then i realized, where the heck is my acne?

the bleeding didnt stop for an hour

i think i almost die from blood loss..

bomber - in memoriam - 070907

the day before

he was coming

and as usual

he scream out loud

to show that he's the boss



then the next day

my mom went out to buy something

and found him

lying dead by the road

hit and run



its feel like just yesterday

that he's still just as big as my palm

he was born at january 29, 2006

so he was almost 2 years old

and he was already at his maturity

and becoming a father

with a lovely wife



he was a good boy

a bit naughty

but overall

he shows that he's truly the man we all need

a bit stupid

but a real survivor

in the real world

a very strong companion

yet tamed



may you find peace

and no longer have to bear the pain

of living in the harsh world

you will always in my memory



bomber

in loving memory

070907

cats hobby

bomber's hobby..
broomed
whats that?
see that..
when my mom (or everyone else) sweeping the floor
he would came closer to the broom
scratching himself
when you try to push him with the broom
he'll just enjoy it more..
is this genetical?

fatso's hobby..
sleeping on top of the tv
say what?
maybe because its warm
so whenever he want it (more like third quarter of his day)
he would jump up the tv
lay down.. and sleep..
same question
is this genetical?

blog links

thank you for the blog link!
inda

hilarious..

veggy cat

when i was working with my computer the other day
my sister came in
she carried fatso with her
along with a grass she picked up from our yard

she sat down and said
"wanna see a vegetarian cat?"
i dont give her much respond for her question
but then she point the grass roots the fatso
which unexpectedly starting to lick it

is this a miracle or a curse?
or just that fatso was a dumb cat?
i'm speechless..

total eclipse

august 28, 2007
total moon eclipse
at 18.30 PM
quite visible from where i'm standing
to the side of east
and its big!

supposedly at full moon
cause you wont be able to see eclipse besides full moon
it takes around 2 hours
which i dont waited that long to watch it

a friend of mine had a camera
and we tried to take a picture of it
but it seems that a normal digital camera wont do much for the eclipse
the picture was shaking
way.. to far..
the blitz wont reach that
and the camera didnt have night lamp
was it supposed to make a change?
and the video only shows a white dot in the night sky

either way
its a cool eclipse
hope someone on the net had the video of it
the previous eclipse i watched only last few minutes
cause after that the moon was blocked by buildings
and the horizon after that, i guess..

cant wait for another eclipse!

i'm a bad person - 240807 - 11pm east

i'm soooooooo sorry......
i'm having an unimportant useless errand
and unable to reply the call
just when it needed most

i'm feeling soooooo bad...
i think i wont be forgiven
i think i wont be able to sleep
i think i havent took a bath this afternoon

i'm ashamed of my self
i'm useless
i'm careless
i'm not a man

i'm sorry
i'm sooooo sorry...
i'm very very sorry..

the promise
i broke it
i dont think i can make up for that

three calls
and i'm not there

i'm sorry
i'm sooooo sorry...
i'm very very sorry..

one little happy cat family

today was a special day
when i return home
i saw a surprising view
unbelievable, if i could say

in front of our house
(its not exactly front, a little bit to the right)
thats where our old teras were
cause we had our guest room moved
the teras was not quite used anymore

there was two chair
its pretty old
and sitting on that chair was..
bomber, with his wife
milking her two kittens
(seems like she lost the number three)

according to my research
the father of a cat not usually get along with the mother
more less their kittens
so seeing this view break all my theory

i came near trying to touch them
but bomber started to scream (he always does that..)
and his wife (should we use this term?) going all out yelling "get away, or i'll let my husband bite you!"
boy, they're furious..
another regret was i didnt got the chance to take their picture

prince and cinderella

cinderella was a poor girl --> i'll exclude this
being treated bad by her step mother and sisters --> i'll exclude this as well
working in her own house --> thats a fact..
then a fairy comes and relief her from all that --> there's no such thing as fairy.. why did came up to this anyway?
the fairy gives cinderella a pair of glass shoes
and she goes to the party where the prince is
the fairy said that cinderella only got time till midnight

then cinderella went to dance with the prince
having a good chat
and decided that the prince was a good looking man.. --> no comment
and of course cinderella was unbelievebly beautiful.. --> thats a fact..

the big clock rings
its already midnight
cinderella cried out "oh, no.." --> this is a bit much..
remembering what the fairy said, cinderella run away from the party
in a rush, leaving one of her glass shoes at the stairs
the prince desperately trying to chase her
and found only one of her glass shoes --> now we agree that this part was a bit too exaggerated..

2 years after, the prince came looking for cinderella, found her
and marry her..
and they live happily ever after

furem notes

just two thing i wanna note

furim
play with fire, you'll burn
play with water, you'll wet

furer
love will find you if you try

dream of..

i get up in a space
wondering why i can get there
it was all dark
then suddenly a light came up from behind
small
but slowly getting bigger
and brighter

the light turn out to be a giant train
make a stop right in front of me
the door opens
monsters came out
one.. two.. three..
and more coming out
with huge claws and jaws
swinging their enormous swords, shields, and clubs

i tried to reach my cell phone
dial 911
but no signal out here
where is this place?

i think back of all this
what the heck did this ogres doing in here?
but one thing is certain
if you can see monsters
you can have your own weapons
then a sword and shield pop up out of nowhere
i grab it
and jumped right in their face

at least that is what i would dream of my self..
odd eh?
but what if you're being dreamt..

sign from God

i kinda "ask to God" before the leaving..
the answer..
oddly came when i didnt suspect it at all..
God ways..
only God knows

the good thing is..
the answer is yes..

i'd better re-check..
just to strengthen my foot hold

leaving on a jet plane - 190807

"Leaving On The Jet Plane"

aaaaaa....
aaaaaa....

All my bags are pack i'm ready to go
i'm standing here outside your door
i hate to wake you up to say good bye
but the down is breaking it's early morning
the taxi's waiting is blowing it's horn
i'm ready i'm so lone some i could die

so kiss me and smile for me
tell me that you'll wait for me
hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause i'm leaving on the jet plane
don't know when i'll be back again
oh babe i hate to go

aaaaaa...

there's so many times i let you down
so many times i played around
but tell you now they don't mean a thing
every place i go i think of you
every song i sing i sing for you
when i'll come back i'll bring you wedding ring

so kiss me and smile for me
tell me that you'll wait for me
hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause i'm leaving on the jet plane
don't know when i'll be back again
oh babe i hate to go

now the times has come to leave you
one more time i let me kiss you
and close your eyes and ********* on my way
dream about the days to come when
i want have to leave alone
but the times that i want have to say...

so kiss me and smile for me
tell me that you'll wait for me
hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause i'm leaving on the jet plane
don't know when i'll be back again
oh babe i hate to go

Cause i'm leaving on the jet plane
i'm leaving on the jet plane
i'm leaving on the jet plane
i'm leaving on the jet plane
i'm leaving on the jet plane
i'm leaving on the jet plane
i'm leaving on the jet plane

sore feet

grand canyon..
why would i think about it?

well it happens that my feet has that image..
my sister said that i should wear sandals every where i go.. (including indoor..)
cause thats what makes my feet to dry and cracking..
was cracking the right word?
my mom said i should drink more water and vitamin c..
but i end up filling my tank and go to pee more..

its not that my feet was really cracking..
cause its not that it hurt so much..
and not that my feet has become bullet-proof with that..

and the story goes..
the point is, my sister gave me a pedicure set
WHAT?
is she drunk?
well, not that much.. (kidding..)
it was a set of different type of brush
designed to make your feet more smooth and shine (O_o shine? O_o)

believe it or not it works..
tough i still need more time scrubbing my feet to make it shining..
interested?
you can buy it anywhere around your local store..
battery not included

siblings quarrel

i never tought that siblings could do that
in my family..
quarrels only last three days top
for this one..
i dont know

the story came when a friend of mine has his little brother came in the city
the little brother was a quiet one
while his older brother was quite a rock star
the little brother was going into the college
and decided to stay at the same house
and the fight begins..
the older ones think that the little never learn much of his stay in the city
he cast out the little
its his house anyway..

im thinking..
what would happen if it was me..

i dont think its over now..
cause even tough the older already got advice not to treat his brother that way..
and of course they came back at the same dorm
they still not came back like they used to be
just like what he used to tell me

i..
i dont know what to do..

kitten birth

remember bomber?
like i said he become the boss around our neighbourhood..
and also getting a girlfriend..
catfriend i guess..
and like its been guided, she gave birth in our house..
my bed exactly..
i wasnt around that time
so i wasnt able to stop my mom who went beserk..
"that cat should stay outside!"

one thing that i noticed..
there were 3 kittens
(havent got the chance to check their sex..)
1 yellow stripes
and 2 triple color.. (gotta be female..)
she's got quite nerve to cheat on my cat..

collateral burden

3 years ago..
ive made a promise
that i will turn 180 degrees
tried everything i know (still more to try)
made a bit..
but i earn something anyway..

before that
i always think that everything was a burden to my shoulder
and added that to my fathers death
the burden becomes even larger
the other families were also wanted me to change
i almost give up..

now
its no longer a burden
its a motivation
rather than something to push me down
i believe they're trying to pull me up
and push me from behind as well

and this "another goal"
is surprisingly feels very good
giving me a new color in my life
and now..
LETS START THE DAY WITH SMILE!

broken glasses

i broke my glasses again..
its my number..
i loose track..

it was already night time..
i put my glasses under my bed..
turn off the light..
ready to jump on my bed..
when a suddenly heard a cracking noise..
turn on the light again..
and found my glasses smashed under my feet..

i guess its because i didnt wear my glasses that i cant see my glasses under my bed..
and it was dark also..
kabish?

the point is..
always put on your glasses before you step on your glasses do you can see it so you wont step on it..
kabish?

it reminds me of and old movie..
there was a black skinned cop who wear glasses..
before he arrest bad guys
he always politely ask them not to fight him..
why?
cause that would break his glasses..
and he hate it when someone break his glasses..
and would turn him to wreck havoc..
wow! i said..
after all the chaos and all the bad guys enter the cell..
he would return to his cabinet..
which is full of glasses..
another one i guess..
cool eh?

bachelor party

me and my friends are having a bachelor party..
its not like one of us is married.. (not yet..)
its just a party in house..
with some food and drinks..
with video games and computers..
and maybe some comic books..

we had so much fun..
that we didnt realize its been so long..
it happens that it wasnt "another" bachelor party..
at least until we get another party..
one of us is leaving abroad (its not that far actually..)
he's ready to overcome the hard life..
to get some job..

i believe that we would never forget who we are..
just a bunch of kids who want to have some fun..
and its suddenly the time for the real world comes..

its been so much fun..
and we'll always be there when you need us..

lots to say

just wanna say..

i'm currently the happiest man alive on earth
(along with other happy man)

just say hi

cihuk!

this one goes by the name 'bomber'
why?
when he was a kid, he was a bad ass
bulying his brothers and sisters
and he got an athletic body as well
strong...

and now he's already mature
and taking domination over our teritory
how?
marking his teritory of course...

spraying away his 'scent' all over the place
and awfully noisy at mating season...

my mom goes wreck havoc
when bomber starts bombing every place with his 'scent'
the backyard was fine for him to mark as his place
but he was also bombing area inside the house
truly anoying...

luckily
the scent he was spreading can only detected by other cats
we human cannot smell it

but still...

third level race

remember our myna bird?
its been a month or two since he's paralyzed
and after a lot of love and care from my mom (and us)
he managed to gain his strength back
as you can see, he is now capable of standing on his feet
compared to before when even raising his head was like climbing mount everest

and now he is strong enough to move around his cage
and sing also, though still a bit rough...


one thing to be note
in his cage, there's 3 level bars where he can climb onto
the third one is rather special, cause thats where he sleep at night (its well covered by the hood)
so yesterday, he tried to climb to the top

first bar was quite easy
just aiming for target
gathering power
and jump!

HURRAY!!!

the second bar was a bit difficult
he's moving right and left
to adjust his starting point
it took him long enough as well
and jump!

HURRAY!!!

the third bar was totally different
narrow starting point
and narrow target as well
(maybe he's praying by now)
and jump!

AND HE FAILED!!!
landed hard on the first level
but still okay

i think...
he need some aspirin...

go for it!
never give up!

fatso

the right one goes by the name 'fatso'
its mine...
why?
he's only 18 months old with 10 pounds weight!
thats alot for a cat that age
a friend of mine had a 5 years old cat weight 14 pounds...

see the similarity?

by the way...
how did my sandal got into the picture?

blind printer

another computer problem
we are gonna print some colored paper
the first 5 was okay...
then the next is very amusing
the yellow is gone...

i still got a few yellow ink
cause i think it went out
so i refill it
but it still wont come out

why?
so i went to buy another bottle
and refill it to the cartridge
until it over filled...
put it back again
and start to print

guess what?
the yellow still missing...

i think of another way to make the yellow came out
draw a whole page of yellow
and print it
only white came out
this printer is toying with me...

head cleaning!
deep head cleaning!
untill i bored...
the yellow laughing at me from inside the tank

so i called a friend
he tried
and said "quality"
what?
we try printing with draft and standart quality
the yellow just wont appear
but when using the high quality...
she's coming back!!!
she's alive!!!

*curse*

mr cool face

the virus called himself mr.coolface
using flash disk as the transporter
invecting my computer
it started out just copying files and make it hidden
as well as making fake file with 207,5kb which of course also a duplication virus

another thing it does is blocking the program
task manager, antivirus, folder option, run, and so much more
well its quite a bother some
i tried to use safe mode
but some how it failed, stop responding after 15 minute silent
so i grab my hard disk
and plug it to linux
clean the whole virus
and whala!
clean as brand new!

using a new definition anti virus wll also work
by making your hard disk as slave
then cleaning it from a primary hard disk

it take me 2 days to clean it up
quite slow
thats because i got problem on permission
somehow the hard disk wont allow me to do anything
so i back the next day
and they suddenly worked
no more permission asked
odd eh?

well thats it
im going virus hater again
i wonder...
why there are no people making a truly deadly virus
format the whole disk for example
rather than just changing the attribute
its just anoying!

having fun with video making

currently already make 2 videos
its pretty fun
ive been having fun taking pictures and working with handycam
yet its much more fun working the videos
feels like god (a director might sound better )
you create what you want
and voila!
fun!
lets make some more...
i think i just got 2 more projects in line

seems like working to become a journalist from a cameramen its not a bad idea at all...

our hill myna

we have a myna bird (thats what wikipedia said) in our home
my uncle gave it to us
for about... 15 years ago...
and the bird still alive as we speak...

anyway
the bird got something
he lost his voice
we all just WHAT?
he's a talking bird for gods sake!
and he lost his voice?
we actually try to clean his cage
(we thought it was some kind of a alergic)
but the next day...

he fell...
right from his favorite spot
we all got blown of what happened
fyi: he is paralized but still able to move his head

bird flu?
so we called a friend
she was a vet
and she said
"after you burry him, put salt around the grave..."
FOR GOD SAKE HE'S NOT DEAD YET!!!
my mom even said to preserve him after his dead
i prever to shot him to ease his pain...

so we waited...
for about 2 days
but the bird still alive and kicking! (not literary...)
and he started to eat (with a lot of effort)
so my mom prepare him soft foods
and give him drinks when he wanted to (and when he didnt want it)
plus a bath (its normal now to hear a "cow buthered" like voice in the morning)

guess what?
the bird still alive and kicking untill the present time
god knows till when...

mother's busy

few months ago
my mom and a friend of her joined a championship in our neighbourhood
making dolls from fabrics...

they make it from towel, napkin, and anything thats fabric
you know what they make?
rabbit
butterfly
shrimp
well thats doable

her friend make something unbelieveble
peacock!

what!!!

moms do awesome...
beware...

curiosity is the spice of life

just wait for another 2 or 3 years...

by the way...
singapore sounds fun
isnt it?
why dont we go there for some walk?
happy...
second target, marked!

gals

first i (we) were backstabbed by her

second i was let down by her

third i shot her (was it me?)

090507
thats the date!

lets back online!!!

spirit!!!

blog of a friend

chatronik.blogspot.com/

he said blogspot is no good
i didnt...
then why did he used it anyway?
he used to have frienster blog
which he delete for good

just to remind me

lost another cat(s)

just a few days ago
at the heavy rain
(i mention it at the previous post)
the light went out
so we called a technician to fix it

guess what he found?
one of my kittens lying dead
not at the attic
but outside

now my cat only left 4
3 adult male
1 kitten female
used to be 7
3 adult male
1 adult female (she's the kittens mother)
1 kittes male
2 kitten female

gonna miss you

damage report

after the recent ram chaos
my computer got fixed with a simple correction
a friend of mine borrow his unused memory
then another damage is known
which caused my computer unable to use w*****s
well he's a good friend of mine
so he fix it
but an accident occurs
black out
and 20Gigs of my data erased for good
i almost hang my self

but he's a good friend of mine
he give me a recovery program
and from 20Gigs i should say 80% were recovered
there's a sacrifice of course

1Gigs of my musics and videos were unrecoverable
and 2Gigs of my scanned comics
thats 2 years of work
still searching some left over that can be used

oh did i mentioned my degrading memory?
used to be 512M
yesterday its 256M
and no its 128M
and its was borrowed...

lord...
help me not to hang my self...

magnum opus

magnum opus, a master piece
something to be called the work of art
the inspiring

so, whats mine?
or maybe the right question would be...
what is so much inspiring for me to be my magnum opus

art is copying
is that someone's saying?
maybe not
but through copying
or in better words assimilating
lets create our own magnum opus

truth to be told
i think i had more than dozens of this magnum opus
dont think to much as well...
create!

cat chaos

the done it again!
was it my fault?
or is it their dumbness?
this one got a better story than the last

i was alone at home
and im about to go out
the cat need to be kicked out of the room
so i kick him out
(notice this)
i thought there was only ONE cat inside the room that time
(give comment: my fault or their stupidity?)
but there was TWO cat inside the room
i close the door
for you who havent realize it
the cat got locked inside

afternoon when i arrived home
the cat went crazy
scracthing the door and screaming aloud
and one thing that crossed my mind
or should i say my nose?
is that he done it again

well?

eclipse

4 phases of the moon
cresent, beheaded, imperfect, full moon
thats what i call them
usually visible within a month
and there you are, experiencing the eclipse
watching the transform within only few hours
actually i only manage to see for the first part
cause it happen around 5 in the morning
so the sun shine blocks its view
well, its best already
plus the sky that morning was as clear as ever
though the minimum star singning a lot of light pollution
the eclipse will occur again around august
hopefully i'll be able to see it again
truly the best view
ever

i'm back...

rock on dudes...
teh man is bakc
lets bring chaos to the universe!

i'm free!!!

after a while doing awful things
well its not like i have to do it for all the time in my life
but ive past through it
lets have a wonderfull world
and never ever be under someone's command
yargh!

Stress

get bored from all the stuff..
and my computer just stuck there without repaired
gosh...

RAM chaos

friday noon
my hard disk was overloaded
i decided to clean it
take off my disk
and burn it to DVD

saturday
no time to work on my computer
so i leave it be

sunday noon
finally some slack to touch my computer after a whole week of work
plug back my disk
push the on button
CPU is on
monitor is on
but...
there is no picture in the monitor...
what?!?!

oh, i've been like this before
switch the power supply cable
reboot
nothing changed

oh i know!
switch the memory to a different slot
reboot
nothing changed

i'm beat
the whole day plan was ruined
lets go get some lunch

goals

just found my new goals...

since i was a kid
my goals...
usually is my sister
when i was 1 year old (she is 3)
our father got a scholarship for his post doc in japan
he take our family along
and after 5 years we all came back
not including my father
he still in japan for few years after
i just got to my kindergarten
while my sister was on her first grade

so then we're back home
my sister repeat her school from first grade
while I'm repeating my kindergarten (not that hard...)

so when i finish my kindergarten
i go to the same school as my sister
and on to the high school
and when we go to college
i didn't want to go to the same place as she is!
confused...

but that is all past
now i'm back with new goals!
i'm gonna be a journalist!
started with a cameramen still fine i guess...
wow...
so good to have a goal...
feels like... free...

now... lets make it come true!

sea in the sky

Saturday, January 22, 2007

when i ride home
it was afternoon
around half to six pm
the sky is clear blue
and theres a gathering of clouds
shaping like waves
and the orange sun
shine from the west
so i run around more
watching this beauty for a bit longer
surely one of the best view I've ever seen
and undoubtedly
its after rain sky

there's a time when i saw such beauty
superstitious?
i guess its around may 2006
and around 6 pm too
the black sky is clear
orange sun on the west
and the cloud is crossed in the sky
through the west and south
the west one is bathed with orange
while the south bathed with blue
i shouted my sister
"you gotta see this"
and she said
"awesome"
truly the best view ever there

shame there is no footage evidence
lets become a photographer!

new year

a bit late?
doesnt matter...

here's the story
new years eve
the day started rough
the slaughter day
up until 4 pm
wew
thats really something

than the after
me and my friends gather up
we make some feast
and eat the meat we cooked
and due to exhaust
we all sleep until the morning

in the morning
me and my sista went eating outside
searching for something edible (???)
so we sweep the city
fresh air of new year truly feels great
we buy the food
and go home to the new year

lets do it again next year